I know I haven’t updated in a few days. It’s not like I can say I was busy, either. You guys already know I don’t really have that much going on. I barely ever leave my house; what could I have so pressingly important?
Nothing. I just needed a break. I’ve spent many years avoiding dealing [...]
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I’ve been struggling with writing an update today. Pretty much anything I write will sound exactly the same as the last four or so days. I am even boring myself with all that nonsense, so I can only imagine how you’re feeling!
I have been thinking about how I got so far gone in [...]
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I have a million reasons to not leave my house today. My fiance will be working until well past my bedtime, so I gave him the car. It’s cold and windy outside. It’s raining off and on. I have a lot to do around the house (but shockingly none of it is getting done – [...]
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I almost didn’t blog about this. I thought letting anyone in on my sometimes ridiculously crazy thought process would be like broadcasting how pathetic I can be. I decided to just get it out of inside my head. Either to analyze later, or just for the sake of not holding on to it.
Yesterday I checked [...]
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Today could still go either way, but I remain hopeful and optimistic. Sort of.
I mentioned yesterday that I really prefer to wake up about an hour before the rest of my family so that I can ease into my day instead of getting thrown into the buzz saw. That way I’m able to quickly do [...]
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B is working late today and X went to sleep early. I so rarely have an evening all alone that I feel a little uncomfortable with it. Not to suggest I’m not enjoying it, but that it’s lost the familiarity it once had. There is something to be said for not considering [...]
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I’ve been thinking this morning while I simultaneously do some chores around the house and procrastinate others. It’s a skill. But what I was thinking about is how I got to be this way. The blog I wrote on My Panic Attack History and actually being able to visualize the general time [...]
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I usually like to wake up about an hour before the rest of my family gets up. Since I started writing this blog, though, I’ve been needing more and more sleep. Not suggesting the two are related, that’s just how long it’s been going on. I continue going to bed earlier and earlier, but keep [...]
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What a relief. I actually have good reason to be pretty proud of myself today. I told you earlier today about going to the “comfortable” bar with Alli. I didn’t have much stress about it when I was writing, but had that feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop. Even as I stopped [...]
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I’m assuming that you have read the post I wrote called My Panic Attack History. If you haven’t, that’s OK, but it will bring you up to speed on where I am now. One of the things I left out of that post is the fact I was diagnosed with a type of Lupus that [...]
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